My last post was almost 2 months ago and I was mentioning loving my empty nest.  Shortly after that I started experiencing a slight depression for no obvious reason.  My sister thinks that I don't like the empty nest as much as I claim as I was the kind of mother that liked being needed and was rather obsessed with taking care of my daughters, now I feel lonely.  I've also gained like 20 pounds since I quit smoking and the last thing I feel like doing is exercising.  I feel like I can't motivate myself to do anything.  So now I feel fat, old, ugly and lonely.  Why can't I snap out of it?  I don't even want to be around people, everyone iritates me for no reason.  This makes me feel guilty because they aren't doing anything wrong.  Especially my husband, I love him VERY much and it feels harder and harder to be the good wife I know I should be.  Yuk, I hate feeling like this.  Since my last post I watched Maggie (Tini's sister) for a week so I had 3 dogs.  Jack made me sleep in the guest room.  He said it was bad enough to sleep with 2 dogs, he couldn't manage 3 ( I did feel a little like the inside of a taco).  Posting a few pics of the 3 dog adventure...

Dancing Dogs

From left to right - Mar"tini", Boo, Maggie (aka large Marge)

I would watch my sister dog anytime instead of letting her go to a kennel  and they were all pretty good but I don't think I could manage 3 dogs on a permanent basis.

Then as ridiculous as it sounds since I don't even know them - I became sooooo sad for Lulu's family.  I do know what it feels like to lose an animal and for a lot of us, it's as bad as losing a person.  I know it makes me wonder what I was thinking when I decided to get more dogs.  A few days later my daughter Rachels' roomate called me in the middle of the night to tell me that she had to call 911 to get an ambo for Rae because she had alcohol poisioning and was turning blue.  I can't even describe all the emotions I felt.  Mad because she knows better than that. Dissapointed in her choice to risk losing everything she's worked so hard for. Scared that she wouldn't be okay.  Paranoid about her continuing to be on her own.  I spent the night in the ER with her but she didn't even know I was their for about 6 hours.  A few days later Tini starts with really bad skin issues again and she has pointy tags on 4 of her teets.  I take her to the allergy vet ($453.00) where I'm told she has a yeast infection on her feet and in her ears and some other bacterial infection on her back and the tags are papilomas caused from the Atopica I give her.  I'm given multiple meds and serum refil and told to follow up with my regular vet.  The regular vet wants to do all these vaccines that she's due but I insist on titers first.  I mention that Tini has recently (probably last 6 months) had very bad breath.  I never thought it was that important until Lulu.  Turns out she has a broken absessed tooth (last one on top). I also refil the Atopica at her regular vet (another $325.00). I brush her teeth but I don't really examine her.  Anyways, she's getting her tooth pulled next Wednesday ($400.00).  I'm pretty sure I'm going to be freaking all day about her being under anesthesia.  The beginning of this week I had to take 2 days off to take care of Rae again.  I took her to the hospital because she thought she had an infected spider bite.  Turn out she has a very bad staph infection.  She has a high temperature, is in a lot of pain and is vomiting.  My sister is an O.R. nurse and she said she probably picked it up from going to the hospital when she was drunk.  She has to be on 2 different antibiotics for one month.  I hope she can remember to take them all without me being there to remind her.  I'm glad this happened before her nursing school classes started because she can't even walk or wear pants.  It feels pretty good spilling your guts on here.  Some of this I didn't share with my closest friends or my mother, not sure why, maybe embarassment, but it feels good to say it.  Well, guess that's enough drama for the day. 
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Long overdue update

Just got through my first week as a real empty nester.  I feel guilty saying that I LOVE IT!!  I love my girls more than anything and as long as I'm breathing they'll have a home to come to but I guess I am just ready.  Now it's just me, my husband and my baby girl (Tini) and devil dog (Boo).  I moved Rachel into her first apartment and spent the night with her to set it up.  It's so cute and girly.  I made sure she had everything she needed so she doesn't go charging stuff.  I went with the themes she wanted but she let me decorate.  I love her roomate too, she's easy to get along with and very responsible.  I can't believe what a neat freak Rae has become.  She was such a slob at home, I was always picking up after her.  She also finally got accepted into the Nursing Program after 5 rejections.  Things are finally working out for her and I'm so happy that she will be able to look after herself and be just fine financially.  Next week I'm watching my sisters dog Maggie (Tini's sister).  I will have 3 bostons.  That ought to be fun - NOT!  I'm actually scared about how hard it'll be but I couldn't stand the thought of Maggie in a kennel for a week which is what my sister was gonna do.   I know it's not cruel, I just can't do it.  Guess that's enough, especially since nobody reads my journal.

Reintroducing Boo

This is Boo when I got him 2 months ago. 

This is him now with his sister Tini

He was a sad dog with worms, fleas and he was underweight and unneutered. His ears were always back, you could see his spine and ribs and he just looked pitiful. I was always apprehensive about rescuing a dog because I could never get rid of it after it had already been unwanted but what if I couldn't get Tini and him to like each other. I felt like this dog needed me and I just had to do it.  I am so glad now and greatful for all the encouragement I received from boston buddies...it wasn't going so good at first and I guess I hoped it would just be love at first sight. This has been great for Tini too. Tini has horrible allergies and spent a large part of her day hiding under the bed and she was slightly overweight. Now she's playing all the time and looks better than she has in a year.  I know they like each other a lot but for those of you with more than one....does bitey face sometimes escalate to sounding like fighting? Also, do any of you know how to get a dog to stop barking so much?  Boo barks a lot and this encourages Tini to bark too.  I like to hear them bark a little and at appropriate stuff but he is excessive.


No-one really reads my journal but I wanted to still write about this as I seriously suffer from CRS! I had a surprise wedding anniversary party on Saturday with friends and family and my husband gave me the BEST present.....we are going to Ireland for 10 days - YIPPY!  I'm actually afraid to fly but I'm just gonna try some tylenol pms and deal with it. The best part is that it's already paid for, he's been putting aside money I didn't know about this whole year. We're leaving on 9/8. Jack says that's when our anniversary is but I think it's the 5th. Can you believe we don't even know for sure when our anniversary is. We've been messing that up for years and everyone thinks that's so funny. My daughter Rachel made us the most beautiful present ever! She's so creative and talented (she gets that from her Dad). It's a huge picture frame and she found all of our old love letters from when we were dating and had Kinko's make that into background paper. Then she used the grapevine wreath thingy I had on my head and put our wedding picture in the center of it. The rest is filled with pictures of us at various time throughout our marriage. I need to take a picture and post it. She also wrote us the sweetest letter about what we have taught her about marriage and making a relationship work. It even made my husband cry.
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Testing again - Tini and Maggie begging for food.

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I am so frustrated.  What I did before is now not working.  I'll try that tool bar thing again.  By the way do I have to be a paid LJ user?  It's so past my bedtime I'm giving up for the night.

Wow, that's small almost small enough for an icon.  I shrunk it to 25% in photobucket and now it's that small.  Maybe photobucket isn't so good.  Is snapfish better?

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Tini's sister Maggie (my sisters dog)
I have no idea how I mangaged to do this-I used the little icon on the toolbar right below where you enter  your text. It says "Entry:" I'm going to figure this out if it kills me!!!!!


Here's a picture of Tini when she was just a few months old.
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Here's a black & white that I love of her
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I am going to freak out if this works - with happiness of course!!!


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First off this is a picture of Martini having her bacon double cheeseburger at the kitchen table.  My husband did this and he wonders why she would beg!

Anyways sorry if this is long but I REALLY need help/advise.....Do any of you have a BT with skin allergies?  Tini has had what I consider moderate skin allergies for at least 1 year (she's 2).  I feel it's moderate and I manage it with Omega 3 oil, allerplex vitamins on her food, weekly baths and ear cleaning, and a special fish and potato dog food.  Yesterday I took her to the vet mostly because I'm wondering if she could have a health problem since her personality is changing.  She has always been overly submissive and somewhat shy.  She loves all people and animals but does roll over to her submissive position whenever anyone comes over.  She has become excessively distant like she doesn't need any human interaction at all.  She lives under the bed.  I have to coax her out to go outside.  I have to hand feed her to get her to come and eat and even then she usually runs back under there and waits until we are all in bed to come out and eat.  I can't get her to get in our bed at all.  I even tried enticing her with treats - she grabs the treat and runs under the bed.  If I block the bed off (close the door) she just finds another one to get under.  My vet referred me to an allergy vet and said it could be that she's uncomfortable from her allergies.  I would do anything for my dog and I have made an appointment but I am not rich and they said the first visit could cost from $200-$800.  I have kept the appt (july 31st) but I want to know if anyone has experienced a change in personality do to allergies.  I have researched the internet and could not find any correlation.  If there is one I will figure out how to pay for this because I want her to be happy and I don't think happy dogs live under beds.  By the way, just in case you're wondering, she has NEVER been hit, neglected or even screamed at - if anything I baby her too much.  I REALLY hope someone can help me. 

What's happening

I only have one friend so nobody is probably reading this but....this is what's been going on in my county.

It makes me sick.  I have volunteered at the Humane Society and have been walking these dogs.  It breaks my heart, some of them are so pitiful.  I was afraid to volunteer at first because my husband won't let me get another dog and I thought I would just HAVE to adopt one.  Fortunately, there are so many volunteers that I know they'll all get good homes as soon as that psycho lady looses in court and it makes me feel good to go there and walk them and show them affection.  In spite of all they've been through, there are only about 3 dogs that are too mean to walk.  What is wrong with some people?  If you want to see a before and after shot of one of the little dogs click on the media release at www.harfordshelter.org